Wow! I can’t believe it has been two years since I’ve engaged. I am so eager and excited to be back. A lot has changed since 2022, so please allow me to reintroduce myself. My name is Lacie Davis. I am a follower of Christ, a mother, a future wife, a business woman, and the founder of MD4L. Please know that I enjoy wearing every single hat!
Let's talk about life since May of 2022, which was the last event for MD4L. We had an amazing Mother's Day picnic! During this time, I found out I was pregnant. Though exciting, my whole perspective on life shifted. I immediately started to overthink everything because I had to be perfect, right?! The first thing I put on the back burner was this non-profit. As I reflect, that's the craziest thing I could've done because this platform is literally to encourage mothers and daughters to be better. After that, I went into some imaginative super woman mode and started doing everything to prepare for this baby to come. I applied for a role at work and received that promotion, upgraded my house, got a new car, and drained myself mentally anticipating all of the ridiculous things that could happen- like an apocalypse. On January 11, 2023 Naomi Selene Garrett was born. She is truly a gift from God. For a while, the earth didn't spin anymore. It's like everything just stopped and the only thing I could see was Naomi. After three months I snapped out of it and returned to work. So now, it's April 2023 and I have a new job that is demanding and requires travel unlike before, a new car note, a new baby that needs everything all the time, and I have to relearn my boyfriend (he went through changes as well.) It was a lot but it was all manageable. More than anything it was mentally draining. Why am I telling you this? Because I should've taken everything a day at a time instead of creating more work for myself.
May I have a moment of honesty? It was pride. It was a demon, his name is Leviathan. You can read about him in Job 41 and Psalms 74 just to name a few. I was filled with the biggest spirit of pride that I vowed to myself to never ask anyone for a thing when it came to Naomi. Not to babysit, buy anything, come see her- nothing. I had it all under control. I am still trying to tap out of this today. Matter a fact, I asked someone to watch Naomi for the first time two weeks ago. It was soooooo hard for me to do. I literally sat on my couch and cried for two hours because I was angry to have to humble myself and ask for help. We have been paying baby sitters for over a year + daycare for during the day. This is no way to live. Honestly, what is my reward for that anyway?! Being lonely and proud of myself. I'm tired of sitting up here looking crazy doing everything.
What does this have to do with MD4? MD4L is such a huge focus and the expectations are high. If I couldn't do it perfectly, then I didn't want to do it at all. What a sore loser mentality. How contradicting of me to have a daughter and stop focusing on MD4L. I am not trying to bash myself but I am just being honest. Thankfully I have grown to give myself some grace and I hope you do as well. Having a daughter has taught me how to have patience.
What's next? IDK! But a relaunch is coming soon. I will likely have a small Mother’s Day event. More to come!
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